It was never meant to be
I wrote a long blog before the “retirement planner” post. It was my 6th month evaluation of Shanghai. It was heartfelt . Now that the honeymoon period is over, I wrote in detail about a lot of things…. talking about the ups and downs in shanghai, talking about our new office, talking about how it’s not easy to produce work here and how frustrating it can be, talking about new friends… the best thing so far in shanghai. I wrote about a recent heartbreat and how low I was feeling and how it was affecting my spirit and my work. I wrote how I was coping and dealing with it in the best way I can.
I showed my dark side in that blog, the cliche scorpion in me that people rarely see. I was honest. Too honest, possibly. Too much show of emotion. And for some reason, when I checked my blog today, the post that I was sure was posted successfully, was nowhere to be found.
A higher being must be trying to protect me from myself.
